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    A year of halfs - Feb 4th, 2014
    This is a hard post for me to share because once I say it I have to follow through with it. But here goes: I am not going to run any full marathons in 2014. Instead, I’m going to concentrate on improving my speed for shorter races—all with a goal of a sub-2:00:00 half marathon. [more...]

    Prioritising me - Jan 31st, 2014
    When I wake up tomorrow it will be February; the shortest month in the calendar year and my birthday month. Yes, by the end of the month I will finally be a 40-year-old woman. I’m not freaked out about that (yet!) because age is only a number, but I do admit that my birthdays have been (in general) times of personal reflection in recent years. Only this year, the reflection has begun a bit early. [more...]

    On the other hand - Jan 21st, 2014
    I was half-way over the Atlantic when I moved my wedding rings from my left hand to my right; I had made the decision several weeks earlier that on my return to Scotland I would make the transfer—though that didn’t make it any easier. [more...]

    Thirty nine before 40 - Jan 13th, 2014
    My 30s are nearly over. Yes, in just 39 days my age will tick over from 39 to 40. I’m not stressed or upset about that because I don’t believe that age represents oldness, but I admit that I have spent a bit of time reflecting on the ups-and-downs of the last decade. [more...]

    Why should I settle? - Jan 9th, 2014
    It’s been more than four years since my husband died and I’ve yet to enter into a new relationship. I’ve now had four first dates (the fourth not as bad as the first three, but he wasn’t a keeper) but I’ve not found someone to have a second date with. [more...]

    A new me for a new year - Jan 1st, 2014
    It’s a new year, so it’s time for a new me. OK, not a new me, but hopefully an improved me. Yes, it’s time to take charge of my life and fix a few things. [more...]

    2013: A year in (distorted) review - Dec 31st, 2013
    As 2013 draws to a close, I find myself reflecting on the year’s ups and downs. I’ve been thinking about the good points and the bad points and all of the points in between and I’ve been trying to think of how to recap the year. [more...]

    Am I an imposter? - Dec 4th, 2013
    Last night I went to my first Connect talk, and I was left feeling that I certainly need to connect with Connect a bit more! Connect is for women studying computing, engineering, and the built environment at Edinburgh Napier University and, as I am doing my PhD in the School of Computing, I get to be a part of it. [more...]

    I’m just not that into you - Dec 3rd, 2013
    There’s something ever-so frustrating about the way life and love mix. We want so desperately to be part of a couple, but when someone reaches out for just that we turn them away—all the while wishing a completely different person would reach out instead. [more...]

    The loaner Jag - Nov 23rd, 2013
    Words I never thought I’d say: “I drive a Jag”. But, thanks to the amazing generosity of my brother-in-law, I got to say them throughout my my Homeland Holiday. Oh yes, I did! [more...]

    PhD dreams: Week 1 - Nov 22nd, 2013
    It’s been a calendar week since I formally matriculated as a PhD student and a “work” week since my first day as a PhD student. So—as promised—here’s a wee recap! [more...]

    On being happy - Sep 25th, 2013
    In the past few weeks, I’ve noticed an increase in conversations around happiness and depression so I thought I’d throw some of my own words into the mix. You know, because the Internet needs more opinions! [more...]

    Education is Central - Sep 20th, 2013
    I spent a lovely day on the Central Washington University campus today with my lovely niece, Virginia. It was so wonderful seeing the campus all spruced up and ready for the new crop of students (classes begin next week) but it was also wonderful walking around my alma mater more than a decade after graduation. [more...]

    Three first dates - Sep 16th, 2013
    It seems that my dating life is of great interest to folks these days—just like it was before I was married. In fact, the vast majority of people I’ve run into here in the Homeland seem to get around to the question of my dating life before our initial conversation ends. [more...]

    Changing challenges - Sep 14th, 2013
    I have had the worst luck with my 2013 Race a Month Challenge. In fact, I knew a couple of months ago that the odds of success were heavily stacked against me. And as my efforts to make up for lost time haven't worked, I have finally decided to give up. Well, I have finally decided to change the focus of my challenge at least. [more...]

    The radio star - Sep 13th, 2013
    Today I got to play on the air with Steve and Rob at KXLE Radio—the best country station in all the land! It was such a blast, but it made me realise just how hard the job of DJ is. [more...]

    Hello, America - Sep 6th, 2013
    I am finally back in America after more than two years in Scotland—and after two emotionally draining days of international travel. I can't really say that I'm excited to be home yet because there are just too many uncertainties to face in the days ahead, but I know that I will enjoy my time here visiting with family and friends. [more...]

    The complexity of simplicity - Aug 21st, 2013
    Love is one of the most basic, simplest of emotions. It just happens. It just takes up residence in your heart and soul and it multiplies. You don’t have to work at love. It’s just there waiting for you to acknowledge it. [more...]

    Saving strengths - Aug 20th, 2013
    Following up on yesterday’s post, today I am acknowledging the strengths that save me from the bitterness of my weaknesses. These are a bit more difficult to share because I always feel like others will deny these things to be present in my life (that’s the self-esteem issue I talked about yesterday!) but I have to acknowledge them in myself so that I can counter the bad things I acknowledge. [more...]

    Taunting weakness - Aug 19th, 2013
    My weaknesses taunt me. They prevent me from truly loving myself and they make me doubt every thread of my being. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make them go away, but I can’t. [more...]

    Slamming doors; breaking hearts - Aug 15th, 2013
    It started a couple of years ago. There was a boy. I liked him and I thought he liked me. But he wasn’t willing to commit. He didn’t want me as his girlfriend; he just wanted me as a play toy. So I walked away. [more...]

    Love hesitates - Aug 10th, 2013
    She stood staring at the ticket in her hands, her mouth trembling as she tried not to cry. As she crept further along the security line, she focused her attentions to the terminal ahead. She was too afraid to look back, for if he was there watching her, she might run back into his arms. [more...]

    The hat trick - Jul 24th, 2013
    When I put in my first PhD application, I was filled with self-doubt. But I was accepted. [more...]

    A quiet reflection - Jul 11th, 2013
    I’ve been a little quiet lately, and it seems that my absence from the digital world has been noticed. I guess that when people expect to keep up with your life through your website, Facebook, and Twitter accounts, they get a little antsy when you cease using all of them at once. [more...]

    A Stirling offer - Jul 4th, 2013
    I won’t keep you long today because I’m just way too excited to blather on and on about my dreams of earning a PhD. Instead, I will just make an announcement and get back to my Independence Day celebrations (which have taken on an additional flair this year!). [more...]

    Waiting for a future - Jul 3rd, 2013
    Waiting has got to be one of the hardest things in the world when your entire future depends on the outcome. But waiting is what I do these days. I wait. And wait. And wait. And as I wait, I stress and worry. But still, I wait. Because sometimes there’s no hurrying the answer; there’s no bypassing the wait. [more...]

    Half-way to failure - Jul 1st, 2013
    A year ago this time, I was excitedly telling you that I was half-way to succeeding in my 2012 Race a Month Challenge. Sadly, half-way through my 2013 challenge, I’m here to tell you that I’m failing miserably. [more...]

    The number you have dialled - Jun 17th, 2013
    I am rubbish with numbers. I think that’s a pretty common understanding and it’s not really something I’m embarrassed by. I can’t do mathematical equations (in part because I am so intimidated by numbers that I don’t even try) and I am the queen of flipping numbers around. [more...]

    Garbage day - May 15th, 2013
    I have finally taken the garbage out. And—more importantly—the recycling. Though I admit that it happened too late. [more...]

    A kidney tree - May 13th, 2013
    A couple of years ago, I drew a silly little ‘kidney tree’ to illustrate a story about my kidneys, Bob and Dave. It humoured me, but I didn’t think that anyone else would think much of it. It was, after all, just a silly little drawing. [more...]

    The genius theory - May 10th, 2013
    I took a bit of a self-esteem stumble after being pushed by some hurtful words over the weekend. I really let the words get to me and I started to doubt my goals because of them. [more...]

    To rule the world - May 5th, 2013
    My dream to rule the world began when I was a young child with much smaller aims. I can vividly recall the start of my dream: Whilst taking a cross-country road trip with my family, I noticed that there was a gap between the “Now Leaving [blank] State” and “Welcome to [blank] State” signs. [more...]

    A disappointing time - Apr 28th, 2013
    I have just completed my slowest-ever 10K race and I don’t know how I feel about that. I am embarrassed and humiliated—and very angry with myself. But I don’t know if I should feel that way or if, instead, I should feel pleased that I crossed the finish line at all. [more...]

    Stumbles along the PhD path - Apr 23rd, 2013
    I have just learned that I was unsuccessful in my application for a full-tuition scholarship from the University of Glasgow. I am, to say the least, gutted. I had really wished and hoped that I would be able to waltz into my PhD without financial worries, but it seems that God thinks I’m stronger than that. [more...]

    Superstar! - Apr 15th, 2013
    Today was a very different—very fun!—day for me because I got to be a big important film star for the day. There were script reviews, costume changes, and everything. I even had someone opening and closing my car door as we drove between filming locations. [more...]

    Via, Veritas, Vita - Feb 26th, 2013
    Remember how I told you that I submitted my first PhD application? And that I was a little concerned that I wouldn’t get accepted? Well, that concern seems to have been unwarranted because I have been offered a place at the University of Glasgow, beginning this autumn. Oh yes, I have! [more...]

    Nearly 40 - Feb 21st, 2013
    Today is my 39th birthday. It seems silly to care or to mark the day at all. But it’s my birthday, so I can’t help but take note. [more...]

    Submitted - Feb 10th, 2013
    Wow! I’ve just submitted an application for a PhD programme. That’s just crazy! I mean, I’m the girl who suffered years of speech therapy—and the mocking that goes along with having speech problems. [more...]

    My PKD belly [?] - Feb 10th, 2013
    Today I want to talk about my belly; my slightly-larger-than-it-should-be belly. And, in a way, I want to talk about my crazy brain and its way of justifying things that may (or may not) be right or wrong. [more...]

    My Martini intervention - Jan 9th, 2013
    You may know by now that I'm a big fan of Martinis. It's not that I'm a big drinker; I just like my RyanCentric Martinis a bit. So much so that I've composed an ode in their honour. [more...]

    I’m back! - Jan 8th, 2013
    Welcome back to Just Frances! I’m really excited to be back up-and-running, and hope you’re excited, too. I must start this post with giving credit to the amazing Martin Ridgway for taking time out of his personal life to re-build and re-design Just Frances as a beautifully simple site that focuses on content and design. [more...]

    To date, or not to date? - Jan 3rd, 2013
    One week before Paul died, we had a conversation about our futures, should one of us die—a conversation sparked because it was the anniversary of my very dear friend’s death. And it seemed that Paul and I both agreed: We would want the surviving partner to carry on and live life; to be happy; to date or re-marry. Not the week after the funeral, obviously, but eventually. [more...]

    The master - Nov 23rd, 2012
    The day you’ve all been waiting for has arrived! Today is the day that I completed one of my life goals. Yes, today is the day that I graduated—with distinction!—from the University of Stirling with a Master of Letters in Media and Culture. [more...]

    The distinguished lady - Nov 16th, 2012
    You’ve slogged through post after post of me going on and on about my goal to earn my master’s degree. You’ve listened to me whine about how I had to write loads and loads of words for my dissertation. [more...]

    Three cheers for the cheerers - Oct 1st, 2012
    Well, that’s the Loch Ness Marathon done, and I am pleased to say that I improved my time over last year. The weather was pretty decent (could have been warmer for my liking) and the high I got from putting myself through the torture—and crossing the finish line!—was amazing. [more...]

    Heading to the start - Sep 29th, 2012
    In about 24 hours, I will be running my second marathon. I know I’d said I was only ever doing one, but I was kind of challenged (dared?) by a friend and I can’t resist a good challenge. [more...]

    Digital Diaries - Sep 25th, 2012
    To celebrate Social Media Week, I have decided to share a paper I wrote a few months ago about digital diaries and online identities. It was a difficult paper to write because I needed to balance sharing my ‘personal’ life with the academic side of the equation, but it was a good exercise. [more...]

    A bloody Stirling day - Sep 16th, 2012
    Today was fabulous—even as I sit here with aching muscles and feel completely wrecked. The day started off well, after a fantastic night’s sleep in my new bed, and even though it’s only early evening, I think it’s going to end pretty well, too. [more...]

    A great run - Sep 2nd, 2012
    Today was Race Number Nine in my 2012 Race a Month Challenge and I’m pretty excited about it. It was the Great Scottish Run ½ Marathon in Glasgow (that’s 13.1 miles, if you wondered) and I finished under goal time! [more...]

    The dating game - Aug 27th, 2012
    Sometimes I think about dating. Only it’s a confusing topic for me. Not the dating part; I know how to do that. It’s more the mental and emotional part that has me uncertain. And not uncertain in an ‘Am I ready?’ way; uncertain in an ‘I am a mad woman’ way. [more...]

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