Everybody hurts, sometimes
I’ve really been struggling through this holiday season – much more than last year when I was still in a bit of shock and disbelief over the fact that I no longer had Paul to share Christmas mornings with. The loneliness and sadness just seems so much worse this year. Much, much worse.
I’m trying my best to muddle through for my foster daughter, but it’s difficult some days. I don’t have the excitement that I should have for buying gifts and making candies and singing carols. I just hurt too much to think about it this year.
But for all of the pain and hurt and sadness and depression [?] I’m feeling right now, I am keeping R.E.M. in mind and I’m hanging on and taking comfort in my friends.
When you think you’ve had too much of this life, well hang on;
‘Cause everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
~ R.E.M.
In fact, to end on a happy note so that you don’t think I’m completely hopeless, whilst I’m completely dreading Christmas, I am extremely excited about the following day when I will travel to Canada to spend time with friends. Those happy thoughts are keeping me strong and will help me through. (Yay! for Canada!)
I’ll be thinking of you on Christmas morning.
xx
yay canada – where it’s not raining this morning, and there is a turkey on order and much silliness abounding
(see you soon if you can be that brave!)
I don’t know what to do to ease your pain. But if I could, I would take it all away and make it mine…with your life filled with joy. Be safe on your drive to the homeland and Canada. I will love you always.