(Updated September 2020; see the end of the post.) I was halfway over the Atlantic when I moved my wedding rings from my left hand…
Birthdays are to be celebrated. Always. Even if that celebration is as simple as an inward smile and the reflection on happy memories of birthdays…
I went to the cemetery to see Paul today and ended up digging away under his headstone. I hadn’t really planned on that, or I’d have…
She stood staring at the ticket in her hands, her mouth trembling as she tried not to cry. As she crept further along the security…
Eight years ago, I stood at the altar of St John the Baptist Catholic Church and professed my love and dedication to the man who taught me…
Life is so very different without Paul and these past four years have been a rollercoaster ride that I never could have imagined. Without Paul,…
There was an interesting piece in The Guardian’s Running Blog yesterday about running with music. The post offered insights from two runners – a pro-music runner and a no-music runner – and…
The day before my husband’s funeral, my eldest brother-in-law informed me that I was family and that Paul’s death didn’t change that. He let me…
Today is my 39th birthday. It seems silly to care or to mark the day at all. But it’s my birthday, so I can’t help…
On Wednesday, 6 February 2002, I was meant to go to St Andrews for the day. Only the friend I was meant to travel with was ill,…
You may know by now that I’m a big fan of Martinis. It’s not that I’m a big drinker; I just like my RyanCentric Martinis a bit.…
One week before Paul died, we had a conversation about our futures, should one of us die – a conversation sparked because it was the anniversary of…
I managed to survive Christmas alone. I won’t lie and say that it was easy. In fact, it was so very hard. My broken heart…
Another year, another birthday. Only he’s still not here to celebrate. My Paul would be 51 years old today, but instead, he will forever be…
The day you’ve all been waiting for has arrived! Today is the day that I completed one of my life goals. Yes, today is the…
Graduation is on Friday and I’m really dreading looking forward to it. Oops, did you catch that error? Well, if I’m honest I’m not looking…
I alluded to a big step toward a happier future the other day, but also said I wouldn’t share the big(ish) news just yet. Only…
Sometimes I think about dating. Only it’s a confusing topic for me. Not the dating part; I know how to do that. It’s more the…
First, an apology for my absence the last week. I’ve had some website glitches and had to enlist the help of some amazing friends who…
There is something ever-so-cruel about random memories. OK, not always. In fact, most of the time random memories are happy moments. But sometimes, like today,…