Since becoming a widow, I’ve given a lot of thought to the value of my life; the purpose and the meaning of it. I’ve wondered why…
Today is my 39th birthday. It seems silly to care or to mark the day at all. But it’s my birthday, so I can’t help…
Valentine’s Day is just around the corner and I’ve already started hearing and reading comments from people about dreading the day because they’re all alone.…
On Wednesday, 6 February 2002, I was meant to go to St Andrews for the day. Only the friend I was meant to travel with was ill,…
The truth is, I fell. I fell really, really hard and I spiralled a bit. OK, maybe I spiralled a lot. It started last September…
I didn’t sleep well last night. I didn’t sleep well at all. And, to be honest, I’m ever-so-slightly afraid to be home alone because of…
One week before Paul died, we had a conversation about our futures, should one of us die – a conversation sparked because it was the anniversary of…
There is a man who appears in my dreams who isn’t Paul. In my dreams, we’re madly in love. And much like the widow dreams…
I managed to survive Christmas alone. I won’t lie and say that it was easy. In fact, it was so very hard. My broken heart…
I’ve decided to spend Christmas alone this year. I know that sounds silly to some people, but it seems like the right thing to do…
Way back in May, I had a failed attempt at re-entering the dating world – and that was after my ego had already been shattered! At the time,…
Another year, another birthday. Only he’s still not here to celebrate. My Paul would be 51 years old today, but instead, he will forever be…
To celebrate Social Media Week, I have decided to share a paper I wrote a few months ago about digital diaries and online identities. It…
I alluded to a big step toward a happier future the other day, but also said I wouldn’t share the big(ish) news just yet. Only…
Sometimes I think about dating. Only it’s a confusing topic for me. Not the dating part; I know how to do that. It’s more the…
First, an apology for my absence the last week. I’ve had some website glitches and had to enlist the help of some amazing friends who…
Today marks one year since I hit the reset button on my future. Yes, it’s been one year since I moved back to my beautiful,…
There is something ever-so-cruel about random memories. OK, not always. In fact, most of the time random memories are happy moments. But sometimes, like today,…
I am participating in an online thing where a few people are getting together to chat through a moderated forum run by a grief counsellor.…
A friend of mine sent me a link to a fellow widow’s blog this weekend and I had a wee peek around to see what…